Author: E.L. Montes Book Title: Perfectly Damaged Genre: Contemporary Romance Stand-alone Novel
Schizoaffective disorder: a mental illness in which a person experiences a combination of mood disorder and schizophrenia symptoms.I know about this illness—very well—because I suffer from it. It’s been four years since my diagnosis, and ever since, I’ve been living in a dark hole. Voices constantly invading my thoughts. Hallucinations. All of which force me to question if what I’m experiencing is even reality. But here I am, still hanging on, still breathing and living through it. That is, until he stumbled into my life. Logan Reed. I don’t want any part of him. I’ve pushed him away, but he isn’t easily deterred. I’ve told him I’m different, but he doesn’t care. He’s trying to slowly break me down. I’m trying just as hard not to let him. He doesn’t know how truly damaged I am; what will happen when he does? I know the truth—he’ll never be able to look at me the same way again. Just like everybody else.
4 Damaged Stars!!
"When the Japanese mend broken objects, they aggrandize the damage by filling the cracks with gold.They believe that when somethings suffered damage and has a history it becomes more beautiful."
This is the second book I have read by E.L.Montes the first on being Disastrous which I also really enjoyed. Reading the synopsis I was intrigued to find out how this book would turn out but there was also the fear that it may be too depressing and that would put me off.
When I started it I was surprised to see that it was nothing like what I was expecting it to be! I really enjoyed this book and it really shows you how frightening it would be to be suffering from a mental disorder. You don't get cured some stay with you for the rest of your life and you have to learn to live with it.
I love how the author took on a subject like mental disorders and weaved it into something beautiful.A love story based on acceptance, love, patience, strength, struggle and much more!
Schizoaffective disorder: is a mental disorder characterized by disordered thought processes and abnormal emotional responses. Common symptoms of psychosis include auditory hallucinations, paranoid delusions..
Jenna McDaniels is a twenty-one year old young woman who looks totally normal on the outside..look a little closer and you find out that she isn't normal, she is suffering, struggling with a disorder that has taken over her life. She has Schizoaffective disorder, what is real? what is her imagination? A struggle to grasp reality and move forward she can't live a normal life.She is still living at home with a hateful mother and a father that is never home. And after the death of her sister who was the only one she could truly rely on things go from bad to worse. Her sisters friend Charlie helps out when her life is filled with darkness, she tries to help her keep going when she wants to give up.
Logan Reed is a twenty-six year old construction worker. Logan Reed works for his uncle’s construction company, a company that has been hired to build a guest house for the McDaniels. Hot, tattooed bad boy with a heart of gold! Logan's first encounter with Jenna isn't a normal one after saving her from drowning instead of being thankful she is pissed off and then she tells him that he is probably gay? Yeah not great but this encounter leaves an impression. Logan is supposed to be a bit of a player, someone who doesn't commit and is pretty much indifferent. That is until he meets Jenna, he knows there is something different about her but hasn't figured out what.He becomes an amazing friend to her, someone she can rely on and someone who makes her feel safe.
'For a short moment within that one kiss, I forgot who I was. The world around us was completely still. I was lost in the arms of a complete stranger. That’s what bothers me most: him. He bothers me. I know nothing about him, so how the hell could he make me feel so aline, so at peace, so... safe?'
Jenna hasn't told him about the disorder she is suffering from, she doesn't think he can handle it.Will she push him away, keep the secret hidden or let it all out and let him decide?
I loved how supportive and affectionate Logan was, how patient and gentle he was and how he seemed so perfect yet when you find out about his past..he feels real. His past makes him stronger, his struggles made him better which made him the perfect guy for Jenna. She needed everything he had, the strength to carry on and get better, to never give up. She learns to love herself that is a big part to the story, loving yourself and having confidence in yourself gets you a long way. The dual POV is exactly what I needed,I think its the main reason this didn't get really depressing and put me off!
I want her to be surrounded with brightness in her life. I want her to fight through the darkness and find her light someday.
I think we should have more books on mental disorders and make more people aware of what some individuals are going through.Many times throughout this book I tried putting myself in Jenna's place and it's pretty scary to not have a grip on reality. The voices would totally kill me and you never really wonder how many people live with this everyday and will live with it for the rest of their lives.Something that is constant for them, their struggles, fighting the depression and trying to carry on with life. Hats off to all the strong people out there!
**ARC provided for an honest review**